Post by thegreatlord on Jan 31, 2009 19:27:53 GMT -5
To members of PMC,
It's been 7 long months since my exile after our unfortunate incident that occurred on this board. I am aware that most of you look upon me as a traitor, despicable, and other "fill in the blank" type of things. And I could understand that and accept it. It took me awhile to actually think this out carefully. Let me explain what I was like back 7 months ago before this incident had occurred.
Seven months ago, back when this board was particularly less active, I was the only admin other than Gurlbot that had power. For some reason, this excited me because I wanted to change the board for the better. I wanted to implement new ideas and features for members to benefit from. With each new idea came a new feature that I wanted to do on this board. I guess the responses that came with that was more or less positive and that began to boast my ego. The sense of power and the able to do whatever I wanted to this board made me enjoy it more. I loved being an admin, I'll admit it. And I loved the title status that came with it. But a problem arose.I didn't want to give it up to others. When Charizard and Flygon split the duties and assigned multiple admins to share this board, I felt threaten and upset. I felt that my power was gone and would have little say on this board. Things would change. It would be more difficult working with others than alone, which, I liked.
As you know, the event happened which created my exile seven months ago. I went into exile, disgraced, tired, and extremely bitter, early on. But after those months had passed, I began to change. I began to take a new outlook on life and improve myself. Each day, I remembered why I couldn't go to this board anymore. The thought kept creeping into my mind.
"I could never go back. They would never forgive or forget what I did".
With each month, my bitterness became acceptance. My disgrace became a part of who I am, that, I will never forget and learn from. And my exile, was my rebirth as a new human being. I feel that many of you have mixed feelings of seeing me again. I could understand that. My greatest apologies appear directly to Flygon and Benny, over and over again. Words could describe so much how you went through of what I did and how I destroyed what I considered a close friendship over the years. I feel a rebirth and regrowth of maturity as a person and human being, has occurred to the member that you saw 7 months ago. I guess an clearer outlook on life changes who you are as a person.
I hope that with regular posting, I could redeem my trust within all of you and disregard my ugly actions that caused me to become hated by all.
thegreatlord.
It's been 7 long months since my exile after our unfortunate incident that occurred on this board. I am aware that most of you look upon me as a traitor, despicable, and other "fill in the blank" type of things. And I could understand that and accept it. It took me awhile to actually think this out carefully. Let me explain what I was like back 7 months ago before this incident had occurred.
Seven months ago, back when this board was particularly less active, I was the only admin other than Gurlbot that had power. For some reason, this excited me because I wanted to change the board for the better. I wanted to implement new ideas and features for members to benefit from. With each new idea came a new feature that I wanted to do on this board. I guess the responses that came with that was more or less positive and that began to boast my ego. The sense of power and the able to do whatever I wanted to this board made me enjoy it more. I loved being an admin, I'll admit it. And I loved the title status that came with it. But a problem arose.I didn't want to give it up to others. When Charizard and Flygon split the duties and assigned multiple admins to share this board, I felt threaten and upset. I felt that my power was gone and would have little say on this board. Things would change. It would be more difficult working with others than alone, which, I liked.
As you know, the event happened which created my exile seven months ago. I went into exile, disgraced, tired, and extremely bitter, early on. But after those months had passed, I began to change. I began to take a new outlook on life and improve myself. Each day, I remembered why I couldn't go to this board anymore. The thought kept creeping into my mind.
"I could never go back. They would never forgive or forget what I did".
With each month, my bitterness became acceptance. My disgrace became a part of who I am, that, I will never forget and learn from. And my exile, was my rebirth as a new human being. I feel that many of you have mixed feelings of seeing me again. I could understand that. My greatest apologies appear directly to Flygon and Benny, over and over again. Words could describe so much how you went through of what I did and how I destroyed what I considered a close friendship over the years. I feel a rebirth and regrowth of maturity as a person and human being, has occurred to the member that you saw 7 months ago. I guess an clearer outlook on life changes who you are as a person.
I hope that with regular posting, I could redeem my trust within all of you and disregard my ugly actions that caused me to become hated by all.
thegreatlord.